Thursday, August 27, 2009

bila pintu hati diketuk ; Ramadhan

Ramadhan datang lagi. Berjuta umat menunggu kedatangannya bagai menunggu satu kelahiran baru. Bagi kami, Ramadhan adalah titik perubahan, bulan ketenangan dan penuh istiqamah.
Ramadhan datang dan mengetuk pintu hatiku. Mengajak diri untuk muhasabah dan menilai sejauh mana hidup ini membawa aku menjadi diri sendiri. Aku berfikir sejenak dan melihat ciptaan Allah. Subhanallah, bahawa aku sebenanrnya telah lalai di muka bumi ini. Lalai menjadi seorang muslim solehah, aku sibuk dengan kelalaian dan keseronokan dunia.
Kadang kala, aku tidak berfikir bahawa Allah telah menentukan segalanya tetapi, aku seakan lupa bahawa aku sepatutnya bersyukur, bukan hanya tahu meminta.
Bila pintu hati diketuk, dada bagai terasa lapang. Bagai dicuci dgn keikhlasan diri sendiri yg datangya dari Allah s.w.t . Maha suci Allah, Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang yang masih memberi aku peringatan dan kesedaran disebalik kelalaian aku. Sesungguhnya, Allah masih menyayangi aku.

Benar kata orang, manusia lupa dan lalai tetapi di saat kesusahan, mereka kembali kepada pencipta mereka yang Maha Esa yang bisa melakukan apa sahaja dengan izinnya. Bila Ramadhan menjelma, aku menjengah zaman yang telah aku lalui. Penuh dgn kelalaian dan terlalu mengejar keduniaan. UPSR, PMR, SPM dan kini IB. Semua itu aku kejar untuk kenikmatan dunia tapi terdetik seketika di dalam hatiku bahawa, ia datang dari Maha Agung Allah.

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas, atau disaat kau mencabut nyawaku, aku akan tetap mencintaimu, ya Allah, rabbul alamin. Selama aku hidup, ya Allah, kau beri aku kenikmatan dunia dan aku cukup bersyukur dengan segalanya.


; refleksi diri dan muhasabah. Ramadhan titik permulaan dan perubahan.


love,
*ainunMENAWAN ;)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

ramadhan.

salam.

i'm back from my college. Feels good to be home. haha!~ i'm so lazy to update my blog and i don't noe why. so, sempena ramadhan, i just wanna say Selamat Berpuasa to all BLOGGERS and my READERS kalau adela. Hope you enjoy your ramadhan and menghayati bulan ini dgn penuh makna :D

Happy ramadhan 1430H Pictures, Images and Photos

Friday, August 7, 2009

to ponder upon.

Salam.

i happened to like someone and i can't lie myself for not liking him. Someone gave this to me to ponder upon it.

Ya Allah,
Seandainya telah engkau catatkan
Dia milikku tercipta buatku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami agar kemesraan itu abadi
Dan ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi
Tetapi ya Allah
Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan dia bukan miliku
Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku
Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan
Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti
Berikanlah aku kekuatan
Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit
Hilang bersama senja nan merah agar aku bahagia
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya
Dan ya Allah yang tercinta
Gantillah yang telah hilang
Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah
Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya
Ya Allah ya tuhanku
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan
Adalah yang terbaik buat ku kerana Engkau maha mengetahui
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini

Ya Allah…
Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku
Di dunia dan di akhirat
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini
Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat
Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman
Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh

Amin
Ya Rabbal A’lamin.

Afterall, still hoping for him and may Allah hear all my prayers.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

new born baby ; arissa qaisara

salam.

yesterday was indeed a good day for me and too all my family ; opah, ibu, ayah, semuala...and especially to my dearest aunty and uncle - andak and uncle ajun. congrats!

although at first, it was a nerve racking moment. My aunty was attended to labour room and for 7 hours, at last the baby came out but with the help of vacumm. it was scary actually at first when the baby is nearly to come out but my aunty loses her breath and failed to push and, the baby went back inside...haha! kelakar plak rasenye....haish...at last, dgn doa dan kesabaran, the baby pon keluarla and see the world with the wight of 3.15kg and length of 53cm. She finally comes for real! but eventually, the mommy was sent to OT because the placenta

My andak had decided to put her name as what i've told her before back then when she still pregnant. oh, cooooll x??? Her name is Arissa Qaisara with the meaning of permaisuri dan azam yg kuat. Good name though. i really thought the name suits her because she was sooooo cute and i want her to be very determine and success in both dunia and akhirat.insyaAllah.

As the matter of facts, something suddenly bugged my head. thinking of how old i am compared to my cousin. OMG! by the time i'm 28, they're just 9 or 10!!! adoi, serious, x bole move on! hahaha :D xpela, by the time i become a doctor, bole treat them all ; my sepupu. haha!

Well, i'm glad to have her as my cousin. Her birth is one of the best thing that happen in my life and somehow, giving me a breakthrough to what i will be some day.

Arissa Qaisara ; you have such a beautiful name ( sbb saya yg bagi ) haha! i LOVE you.








Monday, August 3, 2009

new life ; new hope :)

salam.

hello people. it's been a month since i don't write anything on my blog.

i don't have anything to write honestly but maybe i should write a bit about my new life.

I'm gonna start with my block first. i was placed in block D where all the girls are juniors. My room is D219 which is just far away from the main entrance whereby you have to take stairs and walk until the end of the world where there's a view of kelapa sawit and the jogging track and other stuff.
I'm lucky to have my roommate :D very sekepala! xbole move on! haha! miss arlina arshad or ali. gadis pink yang suke pakai selendang and sentiasa comel tu...that's my roommate la! haha :) i love the people there, baik, friendly and they were one of the best thing that happen in my life :D

From room to class. i was placed at M09D which i think full of marie curie's and albert einstein's. serious! mereka bijak! HEBAT! i'm sooooo thankful that Allah placed me in the class because so far i can mingle and mix around with everyone. thanks to seha, my deskmate yg asyik dgn pinknye walaupon i always tease her..haha! my buddy ; dodol! amni yang asyik dgn jaja nye dan teman ke mane2..haha!~

Ah, one more thing. i was in the choir group. haha! lwk x??? i noe my voice wasn't like mariah carey tp perasan sedap sudahhhhh! i was also one of the tennis member yg x berapa reti nk maen tenis and sometimes, i ashamed myself in front of everyone while playing it.haha :D

So, basically, that is my life at kmb. i think i have enough. Enough of little thingy that can make me survive at kmb. i'm gonna start a new life and raising new spirit. the hopeless is hoping for a new hope to be true.

i'm trying to be positive and think ahead ; the future :D