Tuesday, September 29, 2009

; of the beat. clear your mind and let your heart speak

When mouth shut, everything seems to be little perky. I’m at most doing my math HL and people can imagine how hard it was. Damn HARD! Is it ok to caps it? Haha! Denying the truth or fact is so uncivilized. I’m trying to be decent with environment and people. Talking about this math thingy somehow annoyed me. Not to be that judgmental or being self centered every time the algebra flash my wits but I am telling the truth. Sometimes, I felt sick of not knowing what exactly math is. However, I’m still learning though as all my heart and soul truss and constrain everything, every thought that I have to know all but eventually, knowing a quadrant of it is enough.

Last week, I went to KLIA by reason to send my uncle to Sunderland. I guess, it his fate and his hard work that brought him there. I’m glad and so contented. Everyone is feeling ecstatic that day although they felt sad because somebody in our family is leaving. At KLIA, everyone was all around it and I can see all those type of people. Everything went fine for a moment until, it’s time for them to leave. The atmosphere was poignant as everyone is hugging and crying. I felt sad though but I’m so happy to see all those people going to oversea, somehow it's a jealousy. They raised my spirit after all. On and on, I hop over to the world that I’ve never been too. Back to my previous story, learning math is way much better than having such a trouble like them on going to oversea. It hard though. Imagining yourself begging for bank loan and hoping for the visa’s to be on the dot. Well, I can’t. Seeing those people really makes my heart wide open and this is the time when my mind is clear and my heart speaks. All I have to do is just learn. By hook or by crook, I must and I will have to do it. And, dadada! I’m on. Simple! So, I’ve changed my paradigm and let just enjoying our moment learning the pureness of math and the language of algebra. I know its sound a little fraud but it actually the epitome of life and shared it to be cherished.

xoxo, ainunMENAWAN ;)

bercinta :)

salam.

title blog ini saje ditulis tetapi tiada kaitannya langsung. I don't know why, but makin lama, makin la aku nie kering idea to write in this blog. oh my, terrible! however, i want to write today just to tell you that we won! congrats everyone.haha! Ape yg korang mngla??? haaa, our choir team had won the first place for Sambutan Kemerdekaan and kami gembira. Thanks a lot to Syaza and Sam for teaching us to get to the right note. oh, you have no idea how hard it was. Pheww! But, alhamdulillah, we manage to get it right. Not to forget, my choir members, arlina, seha, syahira, juliana,chew fang, manul and also azam. I had lots of fun training with you guys and hopefully we will be together later and perform together.

Next topic, bercerita tntng my post title, bilalah saya ni nk bercinta????

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! tension!

but not la like bercinta thingy, i mean, bercinta with my books!~ ahahaha!
i want to bercinta again with my math, chem and blablabla...so much to give my love too...aiyo

*but maybe, i will like be more triple kali serious this time. Seriously in relationship with books. Hopefully b'cause final is just in two month time. Takutla mak! tp, mak kate, dh takot belajarla! apela yang ko buat lagi ngan komputer tu..haish!

sekian.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

kembali :)

haha...aku kembali setelah sekian lama menyepi. tapi, takdela lame sgt pon ;)
now, i'm at kmb. have too! aiyo, bernasib mlg jgkla while others are huraa huraa beraya di rumah. i have to sing for choir team..lalalalalala!!!!!! haha! well, for the sake of my college too.
raya was lots of fun! mcm biasa, i ate like a lot and a lot la...first raya, di kampung ibu. Seronok kerana mendapat duit raya yang byk dan lebih best bila di kg ayah kerana duitnya lagi banyak! Jadi, kerana tak tahu malu, aku menebalkan muka jgk beratur bersama anak-anak kecik yang lain, makanya, dptla sikit duit tu dalam dua tiga ringgit tu adela jgk.

Hari ini, aku di kmb. Bosan la jgk suasananya. Well, waiting for ppl to come. Tomorrow will be the competition. Hopefully, we will perform the best and tidak memalukan diri sendiri. that's all for now, i think. chiow! :D

Friday, September 11, 2009

hidup ;)

salam.

i've been busy all the way through as i step into this world. Dunia yang penuh dengan kesibukan. Disitulah segalanya bermula. Hidup sebagai anak muda yang berjuang untuk hidupnya demi Allah;Tuhannya, ibu dan bapa serta agamanya.

Ok, enuff with the introduction. haha! As i counted, it's been three month i've been studying here at KMB. HAHA! now i noe what life is actually all about. I lerned a lot by it. Two weeks experience of fasting in my college with new friends, new culture and new environment is actually so nice. I love the way it flows although i've had a hard time during that damn two weeks.

Sebermula, selepas cuti. Homework yang bagaikan seperti gunung kinabalu di Sabah itu sudah saya siapkan, tapi xdela siap sangat pon. itu hanya exaggeration. Terus ke kelas dan melalui hari hari sukar yang penuh dengan mass spec, algebaraic dan paling penting, sahabat baik;GDC.
Tapi, rasa seronok bila masu kelas english because we are learning literature. Jadinys, terserlahlah kejiwangan manusia-manusia di kelas saya ini. Tapi, seriously saying, they are so going to be Elizabeth Browning or Mr. Shakespere as they wrote awesomely!~
Sonnet is rox ; How do i love thee.....

Setertusnya, hari yg penuh dugaan telah berjaya dilalui dgn tabahnya dan menjadi paling mencabar apabila diannaounced untuk adanya kuiz ataupun senang kata standardise test untuk math,biologi,econs, dan blablabla dan mmg seperti yang dijangka, soalannya seperti boleh dikatakan otak sebelah saya sudah kecut dek kerana memerah idea untuk menjawab econs, otak belah kiri makin kembung akubat menghafal biologi dan terngiang-ngiang structure plasma membrane yg mmg unik dan aneh ; maha suci Allah yg menciptakannya, next,otakku bagai disimbah asid bile jawab kimia dan kedua-dua otak ku yang telah menjadi kecut dan fragile dan mungkin x lama lagi pecah dek kerana pure maths ; subjek favourite saya. ooops kami semua!
Setelah satu demi satu test dijalankan. rasa seksa pulak habes cuti nk amek resullt test. tp, xpe, redha dan tawakal setelah berusaha.

Habis test, rasa tengang. Puasa pon rasa aman. amin. mmg Allah sygkan aku. Whatever it is, life in my college is ok and doing what i did right now, is not that hard if you really want to do it. It's just in the matter of time. I have faith in myself insyaAllah and lillahita'ala.

Ignore the craptness. ini sindrom si gadis IB selepas test :D

*saya sayang awak,awak,awak, dan awak semua!~