dahla hitam, gelap pulak

hari ini diumumkan sebagai hari sedih dimana laptop dah rosak and i find it very irritating and annoying. menyampahnya apabila rasa nk hempas dan di saat bila nk gna, die buat hal. dahla aku beli kau, pastu kau buat gedik dgn aku nk rosak - rosak pulak.boleh2 kene flying kick karang.
alternative penyelesaian adalah dgn menghantar ke kedai dan repair, tapi buang mase je sbb aku dh merajuk dgn laptop tu. so, jalan terbaik adalah dgn membeli yg baru. :D * muka gembira*

selesai yg tu, IOP malay x siap lagi padahal hari isnin dah nk kene present. jantung rase mcm nk meletup. Tak sedar diri IOP tu esok, hari nie, boleh lagi berlenggang kangkung melepak kt rumah maksu yg serba indah ini online. Bajet macam nk cari artikel, wanita hari inila, oprah la..last skali, haprak! mmg kecewa dgn diri sendiri, tp, xpe...lain kali insyaAllah x akan buat lagi.

Exam final lagi tiga minggu dan buku x habis dibaca lagi..pure maths macam tergantung di tgh jalan. Sume pon x cover lagi, apal yg nk jadi nie. mcm biasa x sedar diri jgk. Igt nie mcm SPM ke ape eh? Kalau dah automatik pandai x pe jgk, nie nk bace, igt pon terkedek. Tgh merenung nasib, lepas nie nk sambung berusaha walaupon tak tahu byk mane la usaha tu. Bru td ayah n ibu dtg, bg semangat. jgn nk mengada jadi cik pemalas.

Konklusinye, akhir kate, makin nk exam, makin byk la dugaannya. Hypotesis diterima. Mungkin boleh berhenti merepek sekarang. off ; ainun

calm.

losing isn't that bad actually.

somehow, she tried and learn from her mistakes

and, mostly, she's experiencing to be an expertise :D

P/S : SHE is strong and learning :)

love ;

*ainunMENAWAN ;)

; think

salam.

think of how much HE loves you but do you?

think again of how much HE cares for you but do you even care?

think deeply of how HE could give your life better, do you ever realize about it?

think ; self reflection

; they just can't take it away from me.

They can say,

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,

And they can try

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all,

But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me,

That shines brightly,

They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

From me

Oh they,

They can do

Anything they want to you,

If you let them in,

But they won't ever win,

If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,

See I..

I have learned,

There's an inner peace I own,

Something in my soul that they can not possess

So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me

That shines brightly, They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

They can't take this

Precious love I'll always have inside me,

Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I won't face the ground,

I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,

Oh, Lord, they do try,

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all

But I refuse to falter

In what I believe or lose faith in my dreams,

'Cause there's a light in me,

That shines brightly

They can try but they can't take that away from

Me

From me

love ;

*ainunMENAWAN ;)

; of the beat. clear your mind and let your heart speak

When mouth shut, everything seems to be little perky. I’m at most doing my math HL and people can imagine how hard it was. Damn HARD! Is it ok to caps it? Haha! Denying the truth or fact is so uncivilized. I’m trying to be decent with environment and people. Talking about this math thingy somehow annoyed me. Not to be that judgmental or being self centered every time the algebra flash my wits but I am telling the truth. Sometimes, I felt sick of not knowing what exactly math is. However, I’m still learning though as all my heart and soul truss and constrain everything, every thought that I have to know all but eventually, knowing a quadrant of it is enough.

Last week, I went to KLIA by reason to send my uncle to Sunderland. I guess, it his fate and his hard work that brought him there. I’m glad and so contented. Everyone is feeling ecstatic that day although they felt sad because somebody in our family is leaving. At KLIA, everyone was all around it and I can see all those type of people. Everything went fine for a moment until, it’s time for them to leave. The atmosphere was poignant as everyone is hugging and crying. I felt sad though but I’m so happy to see all those people going to oversea, somehow it's a jealousy. They raised my spirit after all. On and on, I hop over to the world that I’ve never been too. Back to my previous story, learning math is way much better than having such a trouble like them on going to oversea. It hard though. Imagining yourself begging for bank loan and hoping for the visa’s to be on the dot. Well, I can’t. Seeing those people really makes my heart wide open and this is the time when my mind is clear and my heart speaks. All I have to do is just learn. By hook or by crook, I must and I will have to do it. And, dadada! I’m on. Simple! So, I’ve changed my paradigm and let just enjoying our moment learning the pureness of math and the language of algebra. I know its sound a little fraud but it actually the epitome of life and shared it to be cherished.

xoxo, ainunMENAWAN ;)

bercinta :)

salam.

title blog ini saje ditulis tetapi tiada kaitannya langsung. I don't know why, but makin lama, makin la aku nie kering idea to write in this blog. oh my, terrible! however, i want to write today just to tell you that we won! congrats everyone.haha! Ape yg korang mngla??? haaa, our choir team had won the first place for Sambutan Kemerdekaan and kami gembira. Thanks a lot to Syaza and Sam for teaching us to get to the right note. oh, you have no idea how hard it was. Pheww! But, alhamdulillah, we manage to get it right. Not to forget, my choir members, arlina, seha, syahira, juliana,chew fang, manul and also azam. I had lots of fun training with you guys and hopefully we will be together later and perform together.

Next topic, bercerita tntng my post title, bilalah saya ni nk bercinta????

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! tension!

but not la like bercinta thingy, i mean, bercinta with my books!~ ahahaha!

i want to bercinta again with my math, chem and blablabla...so much to give my love too...aiyo

*but maybe, i will like be more triple kali serious this time. Seriously in relationship with books. Hopefully b'cause final is just in two month time. Takutla mak! tp, mak kate, dh takot belajarla! apela yang ko buat lagi ngan komputer tu..haish!

sekian.

kembali :)

haha...aku kembali setelah sekian lama menyepi. tapi, takdela lame sgt pon ;)

now, i'm at kmb. have too! aiyo, bernasib mlg jgkla while others are huraa huraa beraya di rumah. i have to sing for choir team..lalalalalala!!!!!! haha! well, for the sake of my college too.

raya was lots of fun! mcm biasa, i ate like a lot and a lot la...first raya, di kampung ibu. Seronok kerana mendapat duit raya yang byk dan lebih best bila di kg ayah kerana duitnya lagi banyak! Jadi, kerana tak tahu malu, aku menebalkan muka jgk beratur bersama anak-anak kecik yang lain, makanya, dptla sikit duit tu dalam dua tiga ringgit tu adela jgk.

Hari ini, aku di kmb. Bosan la jgk suasananya. Well, waiting for ppl to come. Tomorrow will be the competition. Hopefully, we will perform the best and tidak memalukan diri sendiri. that's all for now, i think. chiow! :D