; this is how Malaysian works

salam.

i'm so overly tired. Today supposed to be our hospital attachment and we end up waiting like a bunch of fool. uuurrggghhh! somehow, i'm sooooo pissed off! mmgla. i've waited it for like 4 hours and nothing happen. Waiting for ketua jabatan is like waiting for a rain in a drought. ceh! bole x macam tu. Honestly saying, at least have some sense of respect or humanity to us people!!! i noe we're just student yg belom pon lagi in a medical school but, we've worked so hard for this. Penat ke sana ke mari and end up nothing. Ceh! what a disappointment! Bole x, bak kate syed, macam orang nk jual insurans kt hospital. haha!

After that, oleh kerana terlampau lama menunggu dan tahap kesabaran sudah tamat, kitorang membuat keputusan untuk meronggeng di Taiping Sentral [ so called TS ] sbb, that is just the place yang ade pon. Then, we ate McDonald dan kami membuat keputusan untuk tgk wayang. Cerita ape, tau x, cerita santau.haha! kelakar jgkla tgk cerita tu tp, it was total fun. Takut tu mmgla, haih. gila plak nk takut takut padahal it was just a movie.

Finally, aku pon tumpangkan mereka mereka pulang. Siap masuk rumah minum air kelapa.haha! sedap oh! dan jmpe adik nadia yang amat comel! haha! tolongla faham die comel! heee :))

enough for now,

till then, ainun

; so called "hot chicks"

dear hope,

today, i went to this kenduri. I was a little bit shock to see these particular family with so much of pretending of rich-to-be. ignore the brokenness of my language [ thank you ]

so, the main point here is actually not that kendurila. it's just this two girl so called to be hot chick padahal aku yang tgk nie rase mcm nk lempang muka sorang-sorang.

At first, i was just looked with this emotionless feelings to them tapi this one particular incident make me sick and so damn annoyed with it. Uuuuuggghh! I'm totally pissed off! tak bole blah punye dua org budak. Rase macam nk sepak-sepak. This is how it begin, there was this one family ener pintu tu and this one girl who i think cukup sopanla pakai diorang daripada those kids. Suddenly, i saw damn giggle mcm org gle bile budak tu passed by diorang. like, what the heck! i am cock sure! ceewaaahh! mmg confident, they are laughing their ass off at budak tu. Kesian kt budak tu. OMG! tak boleh blah. ape pon, i like that girl better than the "hotchick-to-be".

Haih, to those girl, this is one thing for you guys to ponder upon. It doesn't matter if you are pretty. The matter here is your heart and how your brain works. Looking people like they are bloody disgust to you is just somehow a pathetic thing that would ever happen to human beings. Just feel sorry to yourself. Thank you.

Haih, aku tataula ape yang idmerapukan hari ini. Yang pasti, adalah luahan hati seorang manusia yg simpati kepada manusia yang lain kerana ade org-org yg tidak tahu mengapa berfikir sangat tidak betul dan tidak matang.

alright then, enough for now. i'm signing off.

p/s : sekarang nk tgk ibu nasyid! good luck ibu :)

hari yang indah :)

salam.

Hari ini hari yang indah :) ceh, macam ayat kanak-kanak tahun 1. I'm starting my day at enstek [ rumah pakngah ]. Thank you kepada makngah kerana telah menjemputku di sekolah. thanks makngah! Bangun pagi-pagi dan terasa bibir seperti Angelina Jolie kerana semalam, nyamuk jantan yang tak boleh resist tengok mulut aku yang hot ni kot. Aduhai! Bangun pagi je sudah nampak cahaya dan kate, yeay! hari ni tak payah pegang buku lagi walaupun pada hakikatnya kene la belajar lagi. baru habis sem 1.

As exam ends, lega nk mampos di mana rasa nak terguling pon ade selepas kecewa dengan kertas maths yang agaknya boleh jadi bahan jugak kalau sesiapa yang terasa nk menamatkan hayatnya [ dalam bidang maths ].I've done my best and it's up to Allah untuk menentukan gred aku dan IB point. I've got one and a half year yet to persue my study and up, up fly away to UK and hopefully to University of Nottingham. amin :)

Today, ayah and ibu balik dari Bandung. Can't wait for jeans and handbag. Bandung mari! :)

p/s : nak tengok marathon spongebob :)

dahla hitam, gelap pulak

hari ini diumumkan sebagai hari sedih dimana laptop dah rosak and i find it very irritating and annoying. menyampahnya apabila rasa nk hempas dan di saat bila nk gna, die buat hal. dahla aku beli kau, pastu kau buat gedik dgn aku nk rosak - rosak pulak.boleh2 kene flying kick karang.
alternative penyelesaian adalah dgn menghantar ke kedai dan repair, tapi buang mase je sbb aku dh merajuk dgn laptop tu. so, jalan terbaik adalah dgn membeli yg baru. :D * muka gembira*

selesai yg tu, IOP malay x siap lagi padahal hari isnin dah nk kene present. jantung rase mcm nk meletup. Tak sedar diri IOP tu esok, hari nie, boleh lagi berlenggang kangkung melepak kt rumah maksu yg serba indah ini online. Bajet macam nk cari artikel, wanita hari inila, oprah la..last skali, haprak! mmg kecewa dgn diri sendiri, tp, xpe...lain kali insyaAllah x akan buat lagi.

Exam final lagi tiga minggu dan buku x habis dibaca lagi..pure maths macam tergantung di tgh jalan. Sume pon x cover lagi, apal yg nk jadi nie. mcm biasa x sedar diri jgk. Igt nie mcm SPM ke ape eh? Kalau dah automatik pandai x pe jgk, nie nk bace, igt pon terkedek. Tgh merenung nasib, lepas nie nk sambung berusaha walaupon tak tahu byk mane la usaha tu. Bru td ayah n ibu dtg, bg semangat. jgn nk mengada jadi cik pemalas.

Konklusinye, akhir kate, makin nk exam, makin byk la dugaannya. Hypotesis diterima. Mungkin boleh berhenti merepek sekarang. off ; ainun

calm.

losing isn't that bad actually.

somehow, she tried and learn from her mistakes

and, mostly, she's experiencing to be an expertise :D

P/S : SHE is strong and learning :)

love ;

*ainunMENAWAN ;)

; think

salam.

think of how much HE loves you but do you?

think again of how much HE cares for you but do you even care?

think deeply of how HE could give your life better, do you ever realize about it?

think ; self reflection

; they just can't take it away from me.

They can say,

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,

And they can try

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all,

But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me,

That shines brightly,

They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

From me

Oh they,

They can do

Anything they want to you,

If you let them in,

But they won't ever win,

If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside,

See I..

I have learned,

There's an inner peace I own,

Something in my soul that they can not possess

So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,

There's a light in me

That shines brightly, They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

They can't take this

Precious love I'll always have inside me,

Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say

Anything they want to say,

Try to bring me down,

But I won't face the ground,

I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,

Oh, Lord, they do try,

Hard to make me feel that I,

Don't matter at all

But I refuse to falter

In what I believe or lose faith in my dreams,

'Cause there's a light in me,

That shines brightly

They can try but they can't take that away from

Me

From me

love ;

*ainunMENAWAN ;)

; of the beat. clear your mind and let your heart speak

When mouth shut, everything seems to be little perky. I’m at most doing my math HL and people can imagine how hard it was. Damn HARD! Is it ok to caps it? Haha! Denying the truth or fact is so uncivilized. I’m trying to be decent with environment and people. Talking about this math thingy somehow annoyed me. Not to be that judgmental or being self centered every time the algebra flash my wits but I am telling the truth. Sometimes, I felt sick of not knowing what exactly math is. However, I’m still learning though as all my heart and soul truss and constrain everything, every thought that I have to know all but eventually, knowing a quadrant of it is enough.

Last week, I went to KLIA by reason to send my uncle to Sunderland. I guess, it his fate and his hard work that brought him there. I’m glad and so contented. Everyone is feeling ecstatic that day although they felt sad because somebody in our family is leaving. At KLIA, everyone was all around it and I can see all those type of people. Everything went fine for a moment until, it’s time for them to leave. The atmosphere was poignant as everyone is hugging and crying. I felt sad though but I’m so happy to see all those people going to oversea, somehow it's a jealousy. They raised my spirit after all. On and on, I hop over to the world that I’ve never been too. Back to my previous story, learning math is way much better than having such a trouble like them on going to oversea. It hard though. Imagining yourself begging for bank loan and hoping for the visa’s to be on the dot. Well, I can’t. Seeing those people really makes my heart wide open and this is the time when my mind is clear and my heart speaks. All I have to do is just learn. By hook or by crook, I must and I will have to do it. And, dadada! I’m on. Simple! So, I’ve changed my paradigm and let just enjoying our moment learning the pureness of math and the language of algebra. I know its sound a little fraud but it actually the epitome of life and shared it to be cherished.

xoxo, ainunMENAWAN ;)

bercinta :)

salam.

title blog ini saje ditulis tetapi tiada kaitannya langsung. I don't know why, but makin lama, makin la aku nie kering idea to write in this blog. oh my, terrible! however, i want to write today just to tell you that we won! congrats everyone.haha! Ape yg korang mngla??? haaa, our choir team had won the first place for Sambutan Kemerdekaan and kami gembira. Thanks a lot to Syaza and Sam for teaching us to get to the right note. oh, you have no idea how hard it was. Pheww! But, alhamdulillah, we manage to get it right. Not to forget, my choir members, arlina, seha, syahira, juliana,chew fang, manul and also azam. I had lots of fun training with you guys and hopefully we will be together later and perform together.

Next topic, bercerita tntng my post title, bilalah saya ni nk bercinta????

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! tension!

but not la like bercinta thingy, i mean, bercinta with my books!~ ahahaha!

i want to bercinta again with my math, chem and blablabla...so much to give my love too...aiyo

*but maybe, i will like be more triple kali serious this time. Seriously in relationship with books. Hopefully b'cause final is just in two month time. Takutla mak! tp, mak kate, dh takot belajarla! apela yang ko buat lagi ngan komputer tu..haish!

sekian.

kembali :)

haha...aku kembali setelah sekian lama menyepi. tapi, takdela lame sgt pon ;)

now, i'm at kmb. have too! aiyo, bernasib mlg jgkla while others are huraa huraa beraya di rumah. i have to sing for choir team..lalalalalala!!!!!! haha! well, for the sake of my college too.

raya was lots of fun! mcm biasa, i ate like a lot and a lot la...first raya, di kampung ibu. Seronok kerana mendapat duit raya yang byk dan lebih best bila di kg ayah kerana duitnya lagi banyak! Jadi, kerana tak tahu malu, aku menebalkan muka jgk beratur bersama anak-anak kecik yang lain, makanya, dptla sikit duit tu dalam dua tiga ringgit tu adela jgk.

Hari ini, aku di kmb. Bosan la jgk suasananya. Well, waiting for ppl to come. Tomorrow will be the competition. Hopefully, we will perform the best and tidak memalukan diri sendiri. that's all for now, i think. chiow! :D

hidup ;)

salam.

i've been busy all the way through as i step into this world. Dunia yang penuh dengan kesibukan. Disitulah segalanya bermula. Hidup sebagai anak muda yang berjuang untuk hidupnya demi Allah;Tuhannya, ibu dan bapa serta agamanya.

Ok, enuff with the introduction. haha! As i counted, it's been three month i've been studying here at KMB. HAHA! now i noe what life is actually all about. I lerned a lot by it. Two weeks experience of fasting in my college with new friends, new culture and new environment is actually so nice. I love the way it flows although i've had a hard time during that damn two weeks.

Sebermula, selepas cuti. Homework yang bagaikan seperti gunung kinabalu di Sabah itu sudah saya siapkan, tapi xdela siap sangat pon. itu hanya exaggeration. Terus ke kelas dan melalui hari hari sukar yang penuh dengan mass spec, algebaraic dan paling penting, sahabat baik;GDC.

Tapi, rasa seronok bila masu kelas english because we are learning literature. Jadinys, terserlahlah kejiwangan manusia-manusia di kelas saya ini. Tapi, seriously saying, they are so going to be Elizabeth Browning or Mr. Shakespere as they wrote awesomely!~

Sonnet is rox ; How do i love thee.....

Setertusnya, hari yg penuh dugaan telah berjaya dilalui dgn tabahnya dan menjadi paling mencabar apabila diannaounced untuk adanya kuiz ataupun senang kata standardise test untuk math,biologi,econs, dan blablabla dan mmg seperti yang dijangka, soalannya seperti boleh dikatakan otak sebelah saya sudah kecut dek kerana memerah idea untuk menjawab econs, otak belah kiri makin kembung akubat menghafal biologi dan terngiang-ngiang structure plasma membrane yg mmg unik dan aneh ; maha suci Allah yg menciptakannya, next,otakku bagai disimbah asid bile jawab kimia dan kedua-dua otak ku yang telah menjadi kecut dan fragile dan mungkin x lama lagi pecah dek kerana pure maths ; subjek favourite saya. ooops kami semua!

Setelah satu demi satu test dijalankan. rasa seksa pulak habes cuti nk amek resullt test. tp, xpe, redha dan tawakal setelah berusaha.

Habis test, rasa tengang. Puasa pon rasa aman. amin. mmg Allah sygkan aku. Whatever it is, life in my college is ok and doing what i did right now, is not that hard if you really want to do it. It's just in the matter of time. I have faith in myself insyaAllah and lillahita'ala.

Ignore the craptness. ini sindrom si gadis IB selepas test :D

*saya sayang awak,awak,awak, dan awak semua!~

bila pintu hati diketuk ; Ramadhan

Ramadhan datang lagi. Berjuta umat menunggu kedatangannya bagai menunggu satu kelahiran baru. Bagi kami, Ramadhan adalah titik perubahan, bulan ketenangan dan penuh istiqamah.
Ramadhan datang dan mengetuk pintu hatiku. Mengajak diri untuk muhasabah dan menilai sejauh mana hidup ini membawa aku menjadi diri sendiri. Aku berfikir sejenak dan melihat ciptaan Allah. Subhanallah, bahawa aku sebenanrnya telah lalai di muka bumi ini. Lalai menjadi seorang muslim solehah, aku sibuk dengan kelalaian dan keseronokan dunia.
Kadang kala, aku tidak berfikir bahawa Allah telah menentukan segalanya tetapi, aku seakan lupa bahawa aku sepatutnya bersyukur, bukan hanya tahu meminta.
Bila pintu hati diketuk, dada bagai terasa lapang. Bagai dicuci dgn keikhlasan diri sendiri yg datangya dari Allah s.w.t . Maha suci Allah, Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang yang masih memberi aku peringatan dan kesedaran disebalik kelalaian aku. Sesungguhnya, Allah masih menyayangi aku.

Benar kata orang, manusia lupa dan lalai tetapi di saat kesusahan, mereka kembali kepada pencipta mereka yang Maha Esa yang bisa melakukan apa sahaja dengan izinnya. Bila Ramadhan menjelma, aku menjengah zaman yang telah aku lalui. Penuh dgn kelalaian dan terlalu mengejar keduniaan. UPSR, PMR, SPM dan kini IB. Semua itu aku kejar untuk kenikmatan dunia tapi terdetik seketika di dalam hatiku bahawa, ia datang dari Maha Agung Allah.

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas, atau disaat kau mencabut nyawaku, aku akan tetap mencintaimu, ya Allah, rabbul alamin. Selama aku hidup, ya Allah, kau beri aku kenikmatan dunia dan aku cukup bersyukur dengan segalanya.


; refleksi diri dan muhasabah. Ramadhan titik permulaan dan perubahan.

love,
*ainunMENAWAN ;)

ramadhan.

salam.

i'm back from my college. Feels good to be home. haha!~ i'm so lazy to update my blog and i don't noe why. so, sempena ramadhan, i just wanna say Selamat Berpuasa to all BLOGGERS and my READERS kalau adela. Hope you enjoy your ramadhan and menghayati bulan ini dgn penuh makna :D

to ponder upon.

Salam.

i happened to like someone and i can't lie myself for not liking him. Someone gave this to me to ponder upon it.

Ya Allah,
Seandainya telah engkau catatkan
Dia milikku tercipta buatku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami agar kemesraan itu abadi
Dan ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengasihi
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi
Tetapi ya Allah
Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan dia bukan miliku
Bawalah ia jauh dari pandanganku
Luputkanlah ia dari ingatanku
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan
Serta ya Allah ya tuhanku yang maha mengerti
Berikanlah aku kekuatan
Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit
Hilang bersama senja nan merah agar aku bahagia
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya
Dan ya Allah yang tercinta
Gantillah yang telah hilang
Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah
Walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya
Ya Allah ya tuhanku
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirmu
Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan
Adalah yang terbaik buat ku kerana Engkau maha mengetahui
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba Mu ini

Ya Allah…
Cukuplah engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku
Di dunia dan di akhirat
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba Mu yang daif ini
Jangan engkau biarkan aku sendirian
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat
Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman
Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai dan kurniakanlah padaku keturunan yang soleh

Amin
Ya Rabbal A’lamin.

Afterall, still hoping for him and may Allah hear all my prayers.

new born baby ; arissa qaisara

salam.

yesterday was indeed a good day for me and too all my family ; opah, ibu, ayah, semuala...and especially to my dearest aunty and uncle - andak and uncle ajun. congrats!

although at first, it was a nerve racking moment. My aunty was attended to labour room and for 7 hours, at last the baby came out but with the help of vacumm. it was scary actually at first when the baby is nearly to come out but my aunty loses her breath and failed to push and, the baby went back inside...haha! kelakar plak rasenye....haish...at last, dgn doa dan kesabaran, the baby pon keluarla and see the world with the wight of 3.15kg and length of 53cm. She finally comes for real! but eventually, the mommy was sent to OT because the placenta

My andak had decided to put her name as what i've told her before back then when she still pregnant. oh, cooooll x??? Her name is Arissa Qaisara with the meaning of permaisuri dan azam yg kuat. Good name though. i really thought the name suits her because she was sooooo cute and i want her to be very determine and success in both dunia and akhirat.insyaAllah.

As the matter of facts, something suddenly bugged my head. thinking of how old i am compared to my cousin. OMG! by the time i'm 28, they're just 9 or 10!!! adoi, serious, x bole move on! hahaha :D xpela, by the time i become a doctor, bole treat them all ; my sepupu. haha!

Well, i'm glad to have her as my cousin. Her birth is one of the best thing that happen in my life and somehow, giving me a breakthrough to what i will be some day.

Arissa Qaisara ; you have such a beautiful name ( sbb saya yg bagi ) haha! i LOVE you.

new life ; new hope :)

salam.

hello people. it's been a month since i don't write anything on my blog.

i don't have anything to write honestly but maybe i should write a bit about my new life.

I'm gonna start with my block first. i was placed in block D where all the girls are juniors. My room is D219 which is just far away from the main entrance whereby you have to take stairs and walk until the end of the world where there's a view of kelapa sawit and the jogging track and other stuff.
I'm lucky to have my roommate :D very sekepala! xbole move on! haha! miss arlina arshad or ali. gadis pink yang suke pakai selendang and sentiasa comel tu...that's my roommate la! haha :) i love the people there, baik, friendly and they were one of the best thing that happen in my life :D

From room to class. i was placed at M09D which i think full of marie curie's and albert einstein's. serious! mereka bijak! HEBAT! i'm sooooo thankful that Allah placed me in the class because so far i can mingle and mix around with everyone. thanks to seha, my deskmate yg asyik dgn pinknye walaupon i always tease her..haha! my buddy ; dodol! amni yang asyik dgn jaja nye dan teman ke mane2..haha!~

Ah, one more thing. i was in the choir group. haha! lwk x??? i noe my voice wasn't like mariah carey tp perasan sedap sudahhhhh! i was also one of the tennis member yg x berapa reti nk maen tenis and sometimes, i ashamed myself in front of everyone while playing it.haha :D

So, basically, that is my life at kmb. i think i have enough. Enough of little thingy that can make me survive at kmb. i'm gonna start a new life and raising new spirit. the hopeless is hoping for a new hope to be true.

i'm trying to be positive and think ahead ; the future :D

kmb

salam.
alhamdulillah, i have a very safe journey to my college, MARA college Banting. it was very tiring day for me, i mean for the whole week of orientation. Friends here are great! i can't wait to start my lesson but a little bit afraid for the moment. haaa....so, before anything, terima kasih arlina!!! for letting me borrow her calcom broadband yang aru sahaj di beli! thnx room mate!~ hehehe

p/s : saya nervous, takut dan etc. very insecure right now.

til then,

love ; *ainunMENAWAN ;)

rhapsody hati ;)

salam.

hye guys, this maybe my last post for now as i'm going to Kolej MARA Banting to futher my study in IB diploma. By the time i get there, no more free life and suka suki seperti dahulu.
i'm gonna be away from my house and probably less time to have fun.
i just hope to excell there and be good. haha! luckily, i have my friends with me ther. Loads of them and they can give me full support.

last night, as i packed my things, suddenly my adek come and somehow, it touched me :(

adek : kakak nk pergi mane ni??? nk pegi kolej MARA Banting ( she seriously said the full college name ) dah ke?

me : yes adek...selasa nie kakak masukla..

adek : kakak jgnla pergi...nnti sape nk tmn adek? nk hantar adek pegi sekolah? nk amek adek?

me : laa...ibu kn ade..mak cik dewi ade ( who is my jiran ) kn??? ok!

adek : tanak mak cik dewi...

me : ala..you have to la adek...xpon ibu amek kn?

adek : haaaa...( smiling ) kakak..

me : yes, ape???

adek : kakak nnti nyanyila kt adek...bole??? nnti adek rindu dgr kakak nyanyi melalak dlm bilik air tu..hehehe :DD

me : hmm...bole!!!! sure la syg oii! ( i merely to cry but i pretend strong! )

adek : ok!!! dhla kakak, adek tanak tolong kakak kemas la...adek nk tgk tv

me : dhla..pegi jauh2!

although she doesn't wanna help me which i find it soooo annoying but, i was a little upset but what to do? i have to go and fight for my future.

friends, thank you for supporting me and wish me luck there! haha! :D

till then ; bye.

love,
*ainunMENAWAN ;)

Give me a BREAK!

salam.

The title really had nothing to do with my scrabbling. In a blink of eye, there were only one week left for me before I became a college student. Wondering, how life would be there? Hectic? Quiet? Nerd? Wondering too, what type of people there? Geeks? Outgoing? Funny? Fast motion? Oh, I still can’t believe myself. Going out there, struggling and fighting for my future. I didn’t think that I’ll be in going to this path, I mean, in this kind of way. Sometimes I find it pretty funny. Of course it’s a dream come true. I thank Allah for everything that I have now. I’m satisfied, enough said.

She is pristine.

She grow up as a girl who is not that smart who have that ‘wow ‘ factor in herself. A real underdog.

She used to not really use her brain before. Sometimes, people underestimate her.

She tried so hard to improve herself without anyone realize.

She kept trying and trying until she satisfied.

She grows as a teenager by her own experience, a gutter kind of experienced.

She always tried to endure the entire obstacle but sometimes, she failed.

She laugh out loud when she sad.

She is me; Ainun Munirah Zulkiflee.

And I’m going to be what I want to be. That’s a promise.

jari saya sakit.

ini adalah akibat daripada bermain guitar.
seriously, it's so painful! especially when you need and have to press the chords. oh my! terrible.
but, nsib baik, i can play one song, Dewi by Dewa 19 but still tergagap-gagap.
Somehow, i'll try harder! caiyo! :D

chord ; E major, C minor and etc.

finally, its a dream come true.

guitar from ayah. saya mahu reggae!

learning it with amania alwani who is a good friend of mine and also a great singer! SUPERB!
actually, it is not that hard playing it, bu you have to be so focused and have a long practice. oh yes! it's true.

AYAH said ; kalau nk pandai main guitar, kene practice smpai tgn sakit jadi merah-merah. or in other words, until your skin is mengelupas.

i just stood there like total jerk and stared and what is in my is betol ke???

but,
demi cintaku pada guitar, i'll do it! yeah!

bestfriend,sahabat&etc.

Did someone just give me a wake up call or something?
it did realize me. it freaked me out for a moment.oh,yes.it does. ( it's the intro )

again, it turn to be a lousy day for me. i was extremely bored and again watching movie with izyan, brides war. i analyze the movie and ohh, it freakin me out. i thought about it once,twice until i can't even barely think about it. Somehow, i don't want my friendship with my bestfriend turn out to be that kind of way. Can ppl really imagine it. Somehow, that kind of thing may happen to us.

*the story begins with two bestfriend who known each other since they were a kid and dream of everything to be done together. One thing for sure that both of them really want is, getting married at The Plaza on June. So, both of them get engaged and bla..bla..bla..and they went to meet miss st.claire( if i'm not mistaken), the wedding planner. And the crisis happen when both of them got a same date for their wedding and none of them want to back off. Then, the fight start! and bla..bla..bla..until the weddinng day. They both fight at the altar and get back to be a bestfriend again.
( i summerised it up, you've got to watch it!)

of thoughts, bestfriend is like sisters. the bond is just too strong like a noble gas ; a stable electron arrangement. it's the same anology.
whatever happen, bestfriend will stick with each other.

i do have an experienced in which having fight and crisis with our own bestfriend but it actually make us stand to be strong and we both learned and yes, close again.

and of second thought, friends are not to be so perfect with each other because everyone is not perfect and there should be pros and cons. ( saying this through experience..ngeh!)

as the old saying ;
love someone from their weaknesses not from their perfections.

p/s : writing this through experienced. somehow, it's a real bad situation but definitely, it was better than before.

bulan ; )

saya suka dia!!!

mahu atau tidak mahu, saya ttp mahu die.

kebosanan.saya merepek.

si butang.

salam.

today, i felt a little bit alive than before. Last night i watch Benjamin Button starring the hot to throb, Brad Pitt and drop dead gojes, Kate Blanchet. Man, that movie really touched me. Sedih amat di pengakhirannya. Although, the movie is quite boring at the beginning but i still want to watch it. This Benjamin who is born to be old and then getting younger as he grown up. And i tell you, Brad Pitt is so not looking good when he's 80. Ooohh! so bad! Somehow, the movie gives some moral value that i can learn. It makes you think more in this movie because it's too abstract. Back to the hero, Mr. Bejamin. What a gentleman which i thought, i too can fall in love with him although he is waaaayyy to old than his age. Somehow i wonder, is there any more gentleman like Mr. Benjamin left in this world??? because i've to find one. haha! anyone???

p/s : i do wanna ride this bike with him. Jika anda punya motor ini dan anda kacak,
i mean, benar-benar kacak atau sgt kacak,
MARRY ME!

bored i am.

salam.

BORED. i can only say that because that is the only thing that kept bugging my head. so, i've been doing loads in fact tones of stupid things which i couldn't describe or say here because it will only embarassed me. that sunday, i went to kg. because there was this kenduri and hell yeah! penat la weih! i thought, by going there, i can sit and goyang2 kaki but man...i had to wash the dish in hte house which is actually not that muchla...haha (mengada). luckily, i have this beautiful cousins yg amatla rajin helping me at the kitchen. phheeww! After all those tiring moment, i went back to taiping and i'm so happy that aina and farah stayed at kg. to play with all the cousin. ALEE!!! seronok because, the house will be more quiet because they are not there so that i could yell out at them..haha!

jd, inilah kami di kg. menjadi pencuci pinggan paling hot di kg. keroh hulu...

sila pandang atas anak2!

bagus..rajin..bole buat menantu.sape nk??

muke izyan yg mcm terpaksa..haha!

sekian utk cerita di kg.

selepas tu, hari ini, aku memulakan hariku di hospital.Maklumlah, kene biasakan diri..hehehe..
so, i went off to columbia asia for my medical check up result and reviewing my mentoux test. Alhamdulillah, i'm perfectly fine :D
di sana, aku terpaksa la tunggu sbb dr. yg merawatku ade emergency. An old folks. So, me and izyan went to the cafe and lepak-lepak di sana. We ate sandwich and minuman kegemaran saya ; tropicana twister...oooo lalalala!

nurse kt luar yg sibok asyik nk cuci tgn org...huuu

tv je besar..tp x psg pon..apelaaa....

oleh kerana lab test x siap..i went home and finished all the novels yg aku dh pinjam dari andak..sementara menunggu calls from columbia...haha!

the conclusion is, i'm bored and ca't wait to start my lesson in kmb although it was freakin hard and tiring.

p/s : aku rase mcm nk meletop je.

cinta sempurna ;)

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
tak mampu tuk memnaggung sebuah cinta sempurna
Darimu

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirmu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan
Ohhh

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesbrnmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
Tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu
Darimu

maseh! maseh!

1. Copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

2. Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik mengenai pemberi award ini :

- die classmate saya yg mule2 kitorang poyo sket sesama sendiri! haha!

- menjadi sahabat saya dan kuat gelak bersama
- HOT babe!
- out going...x kedekut! as usual, kuat gelak
- menjadi SPM candidate 2008 bersama saya! dia dpt 10 A awook!

3.Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya :

-kuat berangan
-kuat makan
-kuat pokpek
-kuat tidur
-saya penyayang tau!
-obses kot dgn cristiano ronaldo...haha!
-selalu semangat!
-syg kawan saya
-saya selalu single
-saya selalu gelak!

4.Anda perlu memilih 5 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka :

-izyan ; adekku yg sgt suke kamera dan si cantik menawan
-syud ; suke gelak bile aku bkk mulut juga kawan terbaik
-ilya ; cousin aku yg gojes
-aimi ; si cerdik pandai yg hensem
-afak ; junior MEGA dgn senyuman yg menawan.hehe :D

sekian.

love ; ainunMENAWAN

bersalah.

hari ni, tak tahu mengapa, saya rasa amat bersalah.
saya tahu saya salah. saya tahu. tapi kenapa tak nak marah saya.
biar saya nangis.
saya dah buat kawan terbaik saya sedih. saya turut sedih.
saya benci benda nie. saya kecewa dgn diri saya.
kawan terbaik, saya minta maaf. Saya tahu, walaupun berjuta kali saya minta maaf, benda dah jadi.
lagi saya minta maaf dan terus begini, lagi saya rasa bersalah. tolong saya.
kadang-kadang kami gila berkongsi cerita. apa salahnya.
saya tidak suka orang yg menyakiti hati kawan terbaik saya kerana saya mengenalinya dulu dan menyayanginya dulu dari anda.
kawan terbaik saya adalah kawan saya masa susah dan senang.saya sayang dia.

kawan terbaik ;

saya sayang anda!

maaf ye!

wahahaha!

shhh...just read it.

1. I need 2 tell u something, read number 5
2. Are u in a rush? Jgn kelam! read number 8
3. Are u curious now? QuiCK!! read number 9
4. Look its the following....u betta read number 15
5. I havent got the guts....just read number 17
6. I would like to tell u..but first read number 16
7. I'll tell u...but first read number 2
8. Its very simple...just read number 4
9. OyyTe..ingt explore race kew!...jus read number 18
10. err..jap2..aper ek nk ckp tdi??ahh..read number 19
11. Are u gettin tired? relax...just read number 13
12. Like i was saying....read number 3
13. You're nearly there....HaPPy??…read number 20
14. Just dropped by to say HI THERE,wassup!! heheehe!
15. Ur getting nervous ryte??..just read number 6
16. U still dont get it?? Your weird! just read number 12
17. Oh! im embarassed....read number 7
18. I dunno if u'll understand...just read number 10
19. Read number 11...slowly...and u'll find out
20. Now im'a tell u....read number 14...really quietly ok?

dah abes??? maseh! :D

the feelings.

I’m a little bit sad today which I don’t know why. I surf the net a moment ago and went to KMB portal. Those thing that happen there crepe me out. The student there and the environment. Oh, it was hard for me actually. I started to think deep and wisely…am I taking the right path or else. Am I good enough??? Good enough to be with all the future student of KMB…I felt like crying. I don’t know. No reason at all. Sometimes I thought that maybe I should just study in Malaysia and I don’t have to think about this oversea issue. Ayah seems really happy and ibu too felt the same way. As I sat here and writing craps, those ideologies came to me again. I have lots of feelings inside me. It’s like stuck and couldn’t come out because there was a big and huge barrier beneath it. I felt scared, anxious, and a whole lot more. The questioned here is can I do it?? I’ m going to the most prestigious college for IB (international baccalaureate) in medicine. I know, deep down inside my heart, I can do it…it’s the matter of time that will reveal it.
Ainun, I’m writing this to you, Ainun Munirah Zulkiflee. Wake up and be real...looking forward for any opportunities. People give you the chances because they know you can do it. That’s why. Maybe, there are reasons Allah send you there. It’s because, you are chosen to be one of the overseas student. InsyaAllah…one day…

Ayah said, in this world, there’s nothing that can be done easily. Everything needs work. So, work hard. Failure is a way to the road of success but try not to be the failure and learn from every mistake that you’ve done.

Ibu said, we are normal people and tends to do mistake. Work smart and think positive. Ignore people that irritate you because they are no one in your life. Don’t forget Allah because He is the only one that can help you.

I say, in my life, I live for the sake of my ibu and ayah because I really love them. They will always be in my heart and mind because they give me motivation and spirit. They are my hero and I want to become their hero one fine day. Mind always think bad but you know yourself better as heart always speak the truth. Follow your heart and in God wills you will succeed!

My name is Ainun Munirah binti Zulkiflee

Soon, I’ll be going to Kolej MARA Banting

With hopes, desire and passion, I’ll do my best

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Ya Allah, aku hambamu yang lemah dan hina. Aku mengharapkan redha dan cintamu, ya Allah. Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat untuk belajar dan meneruskan cita-citaku ya Allah. Sesungguhnya, engkau maha mengetahui segala isi haitku. Berikanlah aku petunjuk dan suluhkanlah padaku cahaya keimanan ya Allah, amin.

isy!!!

aku nk hempok computer nie sbb aku xbley nk tukr layout..

and now..everything is LINTANG PUKANG!!!!

sorry for the inconvinience..huh!

yippe!!!

aku amat bersyukur! :D

tahniah kepada semua nahwal yang berjaya ke

Kolej MARA Banting!

semoga BERJAYA!


:D

thankful :D

it's been a looong time since my last post..pheew!

ok, i was very thankful to Allah because Allah had given me a great life to live..Alhamdulillah...i was also thankful because i got an offer to Universiti Malaya for Asasi Sains Hayat.For me, it was enough but, i'm still boping foer the best...insyaAllah..if God wills..heee..kalau ade chance, nk jugak aku merasa pegi ireland ke, russia ke..heee :D

i'm still waiting for the result and everybody was asking me.."dah dpt ke offer?"

gosh! that questioned always piss me off! but xpe..may they pray the best for me as i noe, they love me...

untuk UM, tunggulah...i'll be there! :D

hang out bersama muizz [ the gardens]

memang glamour!!!
hari ini, aku dan sepupuku,muizz a.k.a cimuit pegila meronda mid valley tu...excited mcm biawak masuk mid valley pastu pegi terus mcd sbb lapar sgt...then, kitorang pegi beli tiket wyg..konon2 nk tgk the uninvited yg konon2 lagi tu seramla sgt! pooorrraaah!!!! kalau nenek aku yg direct pon lg seram..aiyo! syud yg ikot aku tgk wyg tu pon kte x seram walaupun pada hakikatnya die dah terpekik telolong sebelum start movie lg..hehehehehe..syud2..yg sepupu aku plak mmg habis machola duduk diam2 tgk wyg..sempoila! tp aku tau jgk die takut..di lubuk hati die yang paling dalam...wahahahaha!!!!

tetapi!!! sebelum kami ke wayang, aku dan muizz buat muke selamba biawak kitorang masuk the gardens...wahahahaha..kelakar seyh..konon anak tauke petronas ke pe...hehehehe..semulanya kami bercite2 jgkla nk beli bju tetapi memandangkan harganya yg menyebabkan ktorang boleh support diri utk sebulan, ktorang x jadila..mau gugur rambut aku nie..mule2 ktorang masuk GAP...heee..confident habislah! lps tu..belek satu baju..pastu pusing butik tu..belek lagi bju..tp bkn baju pon yg ktorang tgk..tp tag price die..hahahaha...pas2 ktorang wat muke secomel mungkin masuk Armani exchange..wahahaha..aku rasekan baju tu mcm singlet pagoda ayah aku je tp sbb ade cop armani exchange die jd len trus..huh!aku memebelek..paling murah pon rm180..mak aii! tp xdela jerit kt situ...still mencomelkan diri dan mencari pintu keluar yang aku rasa mmg dh panggil aku lame dah...yang paling best ktorang ke banana republic..woooaaa!!! cousin aku wat muke x malu..alkisahnya..aku baru masuk 2 minit..baju pon x smpt pegang tp cousin aku dh keluar..pastu aku mcm cicak cari die..rupenye die dh lari keluar..die x tgk bju pon..tp trus cari tag price kt baju tp xjmpela plak! tp sbb kakak sales girl tu dah mcm kambing snyum2..die pon kate..

sales girl : [ senyum kambing]
muizz : aahh..tq je...heee :D

wahahahahaha!!! aku punyela nk tergelak..tp sebaik aku pndai belakon..konon2 belek la lg due tige baju..smbil tu tgkla hrge die..yg paling murah pon aku tgk is rm 346..adoi!!! mane aku nk cari det..nk beli boleh tp 4 tahunla aku x tuka baju tu..huuuu..gile la dunia skarang nie...

mmg glamour!!! ktorang dah jln..rse mcm nk membuang..carila toilet...

mcm ni la toilet kt situ...

-tandas! RM5...katenye : please pay rm5 to enter
aku mcm..tuttt!!!! wtf! tgk pakcik india pakai kot kaler hitam yg jage toilet tu...aiyo..mau masuk tu pon mhl sgt ka??? mcmla die bgi mngkuk tandas emas pon! air die sme je...mcm spa la plak tandas...

tp takpe,aku redha..sape soh aku pergi situ...tibe2..aku jmpe signboard toilet lg..n guess what! aku dh tkut nk masuk toilet tu..sbb nnti kene byr rm5...cousin aku mmg selamba masuk je..rupenye xyah byr plak kt floor tu...hahhahaha...habis sungguh2 die ajak aku soh aku try masuk toilet..die kate.." cepatla wei..hang masuk..aku tunggu luar..nnti rugi wei kalau x masuk!"

hehehehe...tp betulla...best gile..aku bole menginap pon kt situ...

lps dah tgk n merewang kt the gardens tu..aku n muizz pon balik mid valley n tgkla cite wyg yg x bape nk seram tu....

conclusionnye, outing hari nie mmg bestla!!! havoc gile!! muizz, kte boleh wat cmnie lagi eh!
to syudud..sronokla tgk cte hantu ngan ko!! wahahahaha :D

hehehe :D

salam. saya baru sahaja habis membaca mega.

first impression ketika mendapat majalah itu :

1.cantiknya !!! xsia2 aku jd MEGArians..hehehe :D

bila aku go through majalah tu, rase mcm sedih sgt sbb teringat story dulu2..aiyo...kenangan lampau! hehehehe...very memorable..

ku belek2 muke kawan aku dlm majalah tu..sume mmg gempak..yang comel dan menawan dan yang hensem dan macho!

aku rindu skolah aku!!!!

so, utk sume org yg sudah membaca MEGA, diharap anda menyukainya..maseh!

sygku!!! i've been tagged.

THIS IS A TOAST.. TO US.. FOR THE MEN WHO HAVE US, THE LOSERS WHO HAD US, AND THE LUCKY PEOPLE WHO WILL MEET US!!

You have been hit.
You are considered one of the prettiest ladies with a kind, warm and loving heart.
Once you have been hit, you have to hit 10 pretty ladies with kind, warm and loving hearts.
If you get hit again you know you're really pretty and kind.
So hit 10 pretty ladies to let them know they are pretty -- both on the inside and the outside and that they are loved and cared about.

SEND THIS TO PRETTY LADIES TO BRIGHTEN THEIR DAY. REMIND THEM TO BE INFORMED, AWARE AND CHECKED FOR THEIR HEALTH'S SAKE. TELL THEM THAT NO ONE WANTS TO LOSE THEM; AFTER ALL, THEY ARE PRETTY LADIES WITH KIND, WARM, LOVING HEARTS.


I hit you ;

syud,aimi,afak,izyan,fung,wafa,,deeb,ilya,ball,nad

xde title

satu perasaan yang tak dapat aku bendung bile internet di rumah aku telah pon rosak..pesal ntah.
rindu aku kt sume kwn2 aku yang setia ngan aku di internet tu..waah!
aku ade intebiu 14 ariebulan nie..mak ai..nk meletop jntng aku..dahla wat ujian psikologi sume tnye soalan merapu!
mende la diorang nie..pe yang diorang nk sebenanye? aku x paham btolla...
anyway..aku xde bende nk ckp sebenanye...saje nk merapu..

btw..i wanna say sori to fadzleen kerana kesilapan menaip di blogku...sorila..i tak sengaja..ok! pape pon..aku ttp syg ko ok!! ok ye fadzleen!!

irfan yg tagged :D

i've been tagged by irfan...my super duper cool abg homeroom yg bkl bergelar pharmacist! hehehe :)

1.Anda rasa anda hot?

- well, of coursela...who wouldn't admit they are HOT!


2.Bila kali terakhir makan pizza.

- oh...man! that was soooo long time since noblians menyambut my birthday di PERLIS! wahahaha :D


3.Lagu terakhir anda dengar.

- new hit from miley cyrus...what is that song huh?? can't rememberla..


4.Apa yang anda sedang buat selain dari tag ini?

- check my name on PILN interview...wohoo...i'm lucky! weee :D


5.Selain dari nama anda sendiri, apa nama yang anda suka dipanggil?

- ntah...xdela kot


6.Tag lagi 5 orang

1.syudud
2.ball
3.izyan
4.afak
5.ilya


7.Siapa no.1

- my super bestfriend yg kini ku gelar cik dud! budak straight 1A! congrates! :D


8.Siapakah orang no.2

-A friend of mine...orangnye comel yg amat! juga pak lawak..hehehe :D


9.Orang no.3 ada hubungan dgn sesiapa?

-hehehe...rasenya adekku masih solo... heee :D


10.Bagaimana dengan orang no.4

-same je kot..


11.Nak kata sesuatu berkenaan dgn org no.5?

-hmmm...i havn't seeing you for a long timela....aiyo! huuu :)

tahniah!!!

dengan ini ;

saya

AINUN MUNIRAH BINTI ZULKIFLEE :D

ingin mengucapkan...

TAHNIAH!!!!!

kepada semua rakan seperjuangan saya di MRSM BESERI!

nahwal imtiaz HEBAT!!!

good luck with ur life guys! :D

tehee ;D

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
-hahaha...i just laugh ( but then it was in time when i already married la...)

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
-yes! absolutely :D

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
-oh, i bet no! ; in certain cases...yes!

Are you wasting your time on someone?
-nope...i mean who care!

Explain the last time you threw up:
- it was when i felt very sick at my maktab and i ran to the bilik air and pom! oh, it was disgusting. dah, enuff!

Last thing that made you cry:
-hmm...bile aku marah adek aku! huu..sorry! x)

Do you have a bad temper?
-practically...no!

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
-hell yeah! :D

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
-two...one is my atuk sayang and one is my nyang!

How often do you think about suicide?
-oh,never!

What is your deepest fear?
-when i fail my exam ; well that's fear
-frog! eeeiiw

Do you REALLY love all your family?
-of coursela...soalan ape la nie ???

What do you want to believe in?
-believe in myself and faith :)

Do you have a secret crush on someone?
-hmmm...surely yes!

Are you proud of who you are?
- hahaha..yes! and VERY!

Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
-nope...aku ske sembang! :DD

What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
-haaaaa...when she stoled my boyfriend from me ( tp jgn beranganla )

You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
-saya sayang kamu ; bangge jd kawan kamu! :D

Freedom or safety?
-freedommmm!

Think of a random person, and give them a message here, no names:
-i like you! do you ever noe that???

Has a song ever made you cry?
-yup

A book ever made you cry?
-yes...its a saddd story man!

i understand :(

wohoo...today is kind of a big day for me as a big sister kerana adikku, izyan mengalami mental down yang teramat sangat..she kept crying and i dunno what to do...she was a tough girl indeed..what had happened to her was really hurt..aku tau...die x dpt masuk SBP..and it makes her feel extremely sad...as because all of her friends are going out to the new places and too, her bestfriend. i try to calm her but mestila kte tau die rase mcm mane kn???? she thought that all her hard works are not paid off...sometimes i do feels that way.In the sad and gloomy conversation, die tetibe ckp :
" asal ko dulu sng je dpt masuk kn?? mule2 SBP...pastu dpt masuk MRSM...mmg xde rezeki aku kot..."

i was so...hmm..speechless....tatau nk ckp ape..aku hanye mmpu ckp :
"sabarla..rezeki xde lagi...nnti dptla tu" and i smiled at her...

adoi..aku kesian sgt kt die...semoga Allah berikan die only one chance to prove that she is a smart student, and, she have the courage to face the world and the reality..amin..

untuk calyn :D

hahaha...i noe u must read it kn???

anda tahu atau tidak???

saya RINDU sangat dgn awak!

asal wak makin comel eyh??

hehehehe :D

saje-saje :D

just read it when you have doubt about your life :)

man of my dream ;)

this is a man of my dream...tehee ;)

he's the one lah!

cristiano ronaldo dos santos aveiro <3

dia hot ok! enuff.

:)

bismillahirrahmanirahim,
firstly, Ya Allah, syukur ke hadapanmu kerana engkau telah memberi aku kekuatan untuk menjadi seorang manusia yang matang dan make me act like a real muslim...
manusia,manusia...aku tataula...sometimes we don't noe what types of homosapiens that we met...rambut je sama hitam tp hati laen-laen...
kejadian yg telah berlaku pada aku membuatkan aku lebih kuat dan lebih byk istiqamah...
i started thinking, what is that thing that i do wrong to the person...if i do wrong, i will immediately apologize with sincere...
and as i noe, i never disturb people life, but why should they...saying bad words to me...oh, why?
i just pray to Allah so that these kind of people have a good life and did not do those things to other...

once says : memaafkan orang adalh satu kemestian kerana ia memeberikan kamu kehidupan yang tenang dan bahagia...sentiasa mendoakan orang yang terbaik kerana doa yang tidak baik tidak akan dimakbulkan...tidak memaafkan dan mendoakan perkara buruk kepada orang adalah bukan sifat orang Islam...

astaghafirullahalazim...

Narrated Aisha: Once Allah's Apostle heard the loud voices of some opponents quarreling at the door. One of them was appealing to the other to deduct his debt and asking him to be lenient but the other was saying, "By Allah I will not do so." Allah's Apostle went out to them and said, "Who is the one who was swearing by Allah that he would not do a favor?" That man said, "I am that person, O Allah's Apostle! I will give my opponent whatever he wishes."

bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
ya Allah ya tuhanku, kau ampunkan dosaku dan dosa org di sekeliling ku...kau berikan kekuatan utkku ya Allah.. sesungguhnya apa yang aku lakukan bukan berniat utk meniru atau menyakitkan hati sesiapa. Ya Allah, berikanlah aku iman yang kuat agar aku tidak lemah dan tidak menyakiti mane2 pihak...sesungguhnya engkau maha mengetahui setiap isi hati ku dan niat sebenarku..amin....

p/s : to whom i concern, saye minta maaf ye.people make mistake without they realize... sorry again...

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title blog xde hari nie sbb aku rase mcm nk penampa je sekor monyet nie..nk dijadikan cte..monyet nie bknlah haiwan tetapi manusia yg masih mempunyai otak dan akal fikiran.

aku jadi stressed up tros dgn die..mcm..wtf! oh..aku mmg tamau mencarut tp apakan daya.

i wanna yell out loud at him!!!!

get off biatch!

api kemarahan sdg membuak-buak! he irritates the shit outta me man!

this is what i looked like when i'm angry!

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today, i went back to my kg. and meet opah and atok...suprisingly..atok igt i'm still studying..oh hello! atok..i'm 18 la...xpela..so, nk dijadikan cerita...setelah mahu pulang mmgla afdhal salam dgn atok dan nenek...and atok pesan :
"jgn nk cari boyfriend..igt nk blaja dulu...nnti abes sume bende..."

dan aku yg tercegat kt situ..tegelak je la...

pastu opah pula menyambong bicara! hahahah :
"isy..xpe ade bf..nnti jd anak dare tue plak...xlaku..asal tahu jage diri sudah! "

hahahahaha..aku punye la tegelak...sbb due2 laen pendapat...opah kte dh jd mcm trend skarang ade bf...tp kte kene pndai la jge diri and our own pride..kn??

pape pon..aku salute la ngan opah aku..very up to date! hahaha..cayala...
but..aku ttp ngan my own self. this is my time for myself and family is priority...takde utk org laen..hehehe ;)